“The wound is the place where the light enters you.” (Rumi)
It’s not lost on me how divine timing played a big role in this week’s video topic. I didn’t know I’d make this video only to turn around and use the tools and resources I offered for my own heartbreak and mental health.
My grandmother is dying. She’s probably only got a few days with us on this earth left, and my heart feels like it’s in a million pieces.
Linda Ellen Brinkley Lindsey is my Wonder Woman. She taught me a flavor of bold, piercing honesty + loving, openhearted grace that is a huge part of how I define my womanhood, my artistry, my coaching, and my essence.
So, through the permanent cracks in my heart that pain and heartbreak of loss leave behind, shines the light of abiding love, forgiveness, and profound humanity.
Mental health weaves into every thread of my grief and the complex tapestry of commitments I have to keep track of for my life.
Mental health weaves into every thread of my grief and the complex tapestry of commitments I have to keep track of for my life.
Has the pattern gotten a stitch off from the perfect plan I had? Yes.
Have I run out of the color thread I was using and now have to improvise? 100%. Do I feel terribly overwhelmed and like none of this is fair or right or okay? More than you know.
Without structures for my mental health, this would mean I’d drop every thread I was holding, kick a hole through my loom, and spend months or years bitterly rebuilding what I destroyed. With structures for my mental health, I yell and scream and cry like my heart had a megaphone held up to it, ask someone else to hold my threads, and eventually step back to witness the new and beautiful pattern that I could have never planned.
Without structures for my mental health, this would mean I’d drop every thread I was holding, kick a hole through my loom, and spend months or years bitterly rebuilding what I destroyed.
With structures for my mental health, I yell and scream and cry like my heart had a megaphone held up to it, ask someone else to hold my threads, and eventually step back to witness the new and beautiful pattern that I could have never planned.
I’ve experienced both ways, and I’ve gotta say, life is a different ride when you choose to put the structures in place.
In the video, I share invaluable resources and life-giving tools I use regularly, and especially during time like this. Healthy expression of all the very real sadness and anger, without it consuming my whole life and being. Leaning on professional support. Amping up my structures for physical well-being, self-love, and spirituality. Getting my needs met through both requests to others and through my own choices. It’s all perfect, my friends.
Our tapestries are beautiful *because* of our breakdowns, missteps, and losses that teach us to trust deeper, love harder, and ask for help.
I hope this video meets you where you are, and shines a warm light through the cracks.
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